July 19, 2014

This is the date it all began. Most people say their wedding day was perfect but ours pretty much was. From the planning to leaving that night in the limo it all went so smooth. We kept waiting for something bad to happen but it never did. Our reception was a big party with all our closet family and friends that made it a night we still talk about 4 years later. I think we can say we will be even more grateful for our support system now.

Let me share with you all what has been leading up to this point and how we have see God working in our lives. I can always remember the thought of adoption being in the back of my mind. Something I would think about here and there. However, I don’t think Nick and I really talked about adoption much before we were married. We talked about a lot of things but I don’t remember that coming up. I think its natural to assume you will be able to have biological children, that you won’t be the ones not get pregnant. So I remember mentioning it to him the first time. He wasn’t necessarily against it but was just like I think I want to have my own kids. That was that convo. Over the years we would randomly discuss adoption a little more. Then this last year a lot more as we just weren’t getting pregnant.

I still don’t know why we think our plans are always going to workout better than God’s. Silly humans  we are.

It has been so neat to see God open up Nick’s heart to adoption. The thought in the back of my mind starting to push its way to the front. I remember praying if God did want us to adopt to make that clear and let us have some good conversations about it. God did that. Both of us have had this peace that we know that this is the path we should be on right now. I think that is an important sign. I think not being able to have biological children at this time but always having the peace about it is from God. I trust that is Him saying adoption is what we should be pursuing right now.  Seeing Nick open up and share his feelings has been huge. Totally a God thing! Let’s be honest we all know how men are about sharing their feelings and Nick is no different. Not once have we argued. We have maybe had different thoughts on certain things but we have been respectful, never gotten mad and have been able to meet each other in the middle with some decisions we have had to make already. It is clear God has been working on us both.

A small but significant thing is Nick was able to switch rotations and work the same weekends as me. Y’all this is the first time that has happened since we were dating I think. I don’t think that is coincidence. God even orchestrates the tiny details.

So where we are today: We had our first meeting with East Texas Orphan Care network. They gave us lots of resources and pamphlets to read. The two of them have each adopted and will be walking with us through this process. It was a blessing that we were able to get with them. We had no idea where to start. So now we will be calling a few agencies, going to info meetings and picking which one will best suit our needs.

John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.

My favorite part of that verse is “my peace I give you” the world we live in can’t give us peace but God can. His peace! We will cling tight to that through this process.

Prayer request:

That we would have peace in deciding which agency to use.

That we would continue to have good conversations and discussions when it comes time to choose an agency.

Pray for the child that God will pick for us to be his/her parents!

Pray that we continue to be faithful and not fearful

Nick and Brittany